Poem#11
You found me on rocky waters,
Trying to escape and attempting to not fall within the scrutinising gaps,
But realising that I have created these traps for myself,
I don’t want to drag you down to the pit that I’m in,
The self pity that I can not reject or resist because I endure this low
Sometimes i think I want to be lonely because I can’t explain what it means to me to be alone.
I keep this trepidation towards intimacy because I have only understood rejection.
Even though you have shown that water will always flow, I will not struggle and gasp for air because I want to drown
Since drowning is all I know.
I know that you have the impact of something greater in my life,
But me being aloof,
I will never let you in because my mind is irrational and I already know you hate me before you love me.
I feel my pieces breaking around me
Gliding simultaneously into the atmosphere as my history repeats itself
I will forever be alone
Oleta Bailey




